Before I sat down to write this I made sure to revisit my 2011 recap, “Make a Joke, Say a Prayer… Move On.” You’ll notice there’s no recap of 2012 on my blog, and that’s because 2012 was pretty much worse than 2011. Reading through my 2011 post and reflecting on 2012, I can’t help but look up and say, “thank you.”
You see, things were bad. Really bad. But no matter how bad things got, I kept going. If it meant being paralyzed from the waist down and dragging myself by the arms to that finish line, (figuratively speaking, of course) I was going to do it. And I did. But not without doubt, a whole lot of fear, and a dash of self-loathing. After all, I am a human being. As many (or probably all) of you know, tough times ain’t easy to get through. And for me, it was a combination of personal and professional misfortune that contributed to, frankly, a shitty few years. It really brought new meaning to the saying, “When it rains, it pours.”
I don’t quite know how to put into words how faith got me through those tough years. At my lowest of low points, I always looked to God and declared my patience and trust in Him, as well as my gratitude, for I knew that those tough times would allow me to fully appreciate the joys and triumphs when they came. And they did.
Believe it or not, the change in my life came practically overnight. Things… Just changed. And I really can’t even go into detail about what I’ve accomplished this year because I am simply in awe of where I am now compared to where I was one year ago today. So much so that it brings me to tears to think about it. All I can say is that I am, with my whole heart and soul, so grateful for 2013. I will always remember what it took to get here. I will also say this: I knew it. No matter how much doubt lived in my mind and how unrealistic my goals seemed at times, that glimmer of determination always shined brighter and more fiercely than anything else. I knew it would come, and I’m so thankful that it did.
I owe a big ‘thank you’ to everyone who supported me this year. It’s been a great pleasure getting to know people from all over the world through MissMaven.com, my YouTube channel, and Instagram. You don’t know what it means to me to see your appreciation for my work, so thank you; I’m sending you all a big, squishy hug.
2014: Let’s go.